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dé·jà vu (dā’zhä vōō’)
noun.

• 1. Psychology The illusion of having already experienced something actually being experienced for the first time.
• 2. a. An impression of having seen or experienced something before: Old-timers watched the stock-market crash with a distinct sense of déjà vu.
  b. Dull familiarity; monotony: the déjà vu of the tabloid headlines.

It’s been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. Over the years it has become more and more frequent. About a year ago it was tickling my curiosity so much that I decided to research it. I read a lot of articles and papers about it. I read about a lot of studies that had been done on it. Some people think it’s a trick of the eyes. Some people think it’s a trick of the brain. Some people think it’s more of a spiritual experience. Since nobody knows what exactly it is, how it happens, or why it happens, I’ve kind of adopted my own thoughts on the subject. I heard this explanation a while back, and it’s stuck with me ever since. I like it, especially since over the past couple of years I have grown a profound fascination with, and respect for, the idea of reincarnation.

Before your soul is reborn on Earth, you are given a quick run-down, a preview, of the way your life should proceed. Almost like your life “flashing before your eyes” before your birth, as opposed to right before your death. A déjà vu moment is like a little flashback to that preview. A quick little glimpse of your soul recalling the way your life was supposed to go. So in a sense, a déjà vu moment is like your soul letting you know that you’re on the right track. Your life is going the way it should.

There’s no telling how accurate this assessment is, but it is the one with which I seem to resonate the most. Maybe it’s just that validation from a higher power that I’m searching for. No matter, though, the reason. I like this explanation and so I hold it with me every time I have a déjà vu.

Now, with all this being said, the reason I bring it up is because I have been having a LOT of déjà vu lately. The moments are getting more frequent, more intense, and are lasting longer. I have them several times a week now.The most recent one was so intense that I had to tell someone about it. I told Ley and she agreed with me that it was very weird!

I was parking my car when it started. I had just pulled into my parking space and was turning off the ignition when the sound of the music slurring to a stop jogged the déjà vu into action. By this time I had gotten to used to the frequent déjà vu that I was kind of brushing it off. “Yeah yeah, déjà vu, and then when I open the door it’s gonna slip a little bit out of my grip” … and it did. “Yeah yeah, déjà vu, then I’m gonna open my back door and reach for the bags and one of them is gonna slide out of reach” … and it did. This continued, me predicting what was going to come to next, until I gathered all of my things, dodged the wasp at my front door, unlocked it, and set my things down inside. I mean, how odd is that? It’s not as if it were even a very predictable moment. I had gone to pick up all of my new things for culinary school, so all of the bags in the bag were a new thing. I never even carry things in my back seat, but since i had recently cleaned it out, I used the seat. There is rarely a wasp anywhere near my apartment, so it’s not as if that was even a regular experience.

Very odd. Very odd indeed.
But, if this means I am so on the right track that I am beginning to predict what comes next… Well, I think I’m okay with that.

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