Checking My Pulse
Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
This is my first real self portrait in over two years. I think I finally remembered how to use my camera.
This past weekend I went to New Orleans with a friend. Just for fun I had a tarot reading by a woman who was highly spoken about. I was surprised by how accurate it was. Basically recited the past four months of my life back to me in a neat, concise little package. The thing that struck me is that she was not only shocked about it, but she was just as confused and frustrated by my current situation as I am. So I left with a confirmation, but not much more than that.
My brother was married a week and a half ago. I cried the moment they started to recite their vows. I never thought I would cry at a wedding - my mom didn’t even cry. I am just happy that he has found someone to be with, who loves him so much. Their wedding was my favorite I have ever been to. They walked down the aisle to Nine Inch Nails. The music played at the reception was full of industrial and 80s music (think Praga Khan, NIN, Depeche Mode, and The Cure). The ceremony was performed by their friend who is an ordained minister thanks to the wonders of the internet. He was brilliant. I love my brother and I am so happy for him and my sister-in-law.
My best friend (and office-mate) at work has just gotten a 3-month consulting position at a client site, which means my office is now going to feel very lonely and empty and sad. I know she’s not gone forever, and I know we will still keep in touch. But it is not going to be the same. I’m hoping I don’t just end up crawling under my desk and crying because I miss her. :(
I am so very tired.